I feel damn indignant and pissed off

Yesterday, on the 20th April, after my driving lessons ended (resulting in me looking ever so perplexed when it comes to reversing), I went over to my Ah ma's Chai Chee place via bus 229 from Bedok Centre.

The rain was rather intermittent and we went over to a coffee shop for lunch and then back up. Once there, grandma started giving me work in preparation of the ingredients. I fared so badly in chopping and cutting that I wounded up with a stinging pain on my palm (I presume the chilli padi) and a slight cut mark on my right little finger.

I can only say I really don't mind cooking la. But spluttering oil is another matter altogether. I will shun from it automatically.

And then today, hmm... my dad hit me? 

Well, I would say more because of pride, being really pressured and really just DUMB overall.

For what I bother. You so dumb to always reassure the people around you everything is fine (or else find the person who actually care the most about you naggy ~mum). Then you 'holy' sister that keeps 'USING' aka 利用 you is actually a 'FUCKING SAINT' that can do no wrong when she and her husband were the ones who DRAGGED you into this shit.

Ah, but I suppose Kids(so contradicting when you say technically I should get a part time job, kids don't work genius much?) can never understand, right?

You think I am 'DISRESPECTFUL' just because I yelled "FUCK IT" before closing the car and you hearing only the word that pissed you off? I dare to say it differently ok? "FUCK YOU!" in your face and get killed for it. 

See, my only REGRET is not being born a guy so I can start FIGHTING back.

Mum was right in this line (in a damn agitated manner):
你因为别人而被打，值得吗？现在不是因为你坏，你替别人挡罪而被打lei。(You get hit because of another person, is it worth it? Right now, you are not being hit for being bad/rude/unfillial, you are the scapegoat for his anger)
I bitterly resent IDIOTIC MAN the most! FILIAL PIETY IS NOT 100% ok? IT IS ONLY 80-90% at most. SORRY for being an UNFILIAL and DISRESPECTFUL child.

Let me rephrase what the hell happened.

It appears that my dad 'LIKES' lending his name out to just anyone especially to his HALF(I am bitter until I acknowledge the fact I always thought should not have been bothered by) sister. This is so no the first time and case this kind of shit happened straining family relations.

It appears my half uncle actually sold his company to the Japanese. The contract stated obviously that one cannot operate or ply in the same trade for a few years. However, the SMART ALECK of my uncle already had another firm within the few months.

Of course, the Japanese caught up and here is where we stand. DAD is listed as the "DIRECTOR". STUPID MUCH? Wha lao eh. Create SHIT for himself only.

So enraged he was that he tried hitting me while mum and brother rushed in. He snarled, "Back off!" to brother and even threatened to hit mum with these words: 信不信我打你？(Do you believe I would hit you?) 

At this point in time, I was so hysterically snarling (like a 疯婆) and because his back was facing me, I shoved him from the back all the while just literally snarling. You really think I want to run, I was ORDERED to run. Like hell I give any damn about getting beaten (I keep wondering why I never hit back. Wha lao eh. Should have fought back already) I repeat: You are the biggest Haigong ever.

Anyway, went to Paragon for brother's doctor's appointment while eating Old Cheng Kee. Afterwards shopped around the area with mum eyeing the unique ostrich laced bag worth $3,800 for the smaller sized one.

The taxi queue there after peak hours- OMG only lol. Waited so damn long for a cab. Bottlenecks in the traffic situation and peak hour rush back home compounded the issue.

Reached home ordered KFC and then did the laundry and of course, blogging.

The feeling of being so helpless and always being put down by a guy because of his ego and pride (and of course fillial piety and dumbness) scares me. Make a note to never get this kind of husband: I will get a divorce even if I should lose everything. Why must women put up with any of this shit?

When the mother says ok, he says ok.

When sister(HALF) says ok, he says let's go for it.

When wife says no and nags, he dismisses it or quarrels with her.

When daughter expresses her concern (wrongly), he beats her up for 'disrespect'.

When son voices his opinions, he dismissed them saying you immature.

You tell me lol. Should any woman put up with 'him'?

If he is so clever, why CREATE SHIT? Ironic for a moral. 

Brother: Hey, 姐. Why kind of guy you like?
Me: (Blinks) Ehh? Why you suddenly ask?
Brother: Just asking only.
Me: Well, the usual. Loyal, honest, truthful, able to support me.... also do become like 阿公 being so naggy and 大男人主义 in old age and confirm a guy not like dad who is so filial.
Brother: O yea... when I get a girlfriend....

Like I interested in his affairs like that, all I did was to protect my 'Own' interests. Relax lol. I will be moving out sooner then you can say 'Boo'. In the meantime, stay as the cash crop for awhile longer!