Supernatural... is rather true

CATS was the usual laughs and life morals. We have to do another write-up with a presentation as well as a skit? Die liaos.. Not for me though.

And why is it that I am acting as the leader of this team? I mean it. The other girls are like, "heck care" whereas I am the one smsing them as well as e-mailing them to get them to focus on the work that needs to be done. (Mind you, I have all the 'evidence'). This is so unlike me...

Even now, I have to send sms to them to confirm things. And people always think I cannot lead but just follow blindly. Ha! I just never like to lead but I can and will lead only when there's no id10t who can lead at all.

For Customers Service on November 12, I learnt that I am the rational speaker. Lols... Wat can I say... but lols.

Do you believe in ghosts? Now, I say I always have.

Then with all this talk about my bro being 'possessed' by a semi ghost and deity (loosely translated from grandma) as well as the fact that he has to deal with depression and bone structure problem, it's no wonder my family's atmosphere is tense so much so that even I have been scolded when I vent my subconscious frustration on my brother.

Getting very emotional huh? I dunno about the supernatural part but then there are some things that I heard and seen were symptoms that he was in a way, really possessed:

• I don't know when it started but bro changed for the worse and wasn't himself anymore- He used to play soccer on the PS2 but now, he would not even watch television much less play.


• He's like a small child in the body of a 16 year old- 'Auntie(maid), is my shirt right?' When I heard that I was so shocked that I started chiding him while he looked uncomfortable.


• For some reasons, he does actions that display nervousness (natural, I think) Only, it does not stop there. He can sit down and get up to go somewhere else in a matter of seconds but I saw his face registering as though he was in a fix of sitting as per orders or his legs moving about.


• He freaked my maternal grandmother out by sitting on the sofa beside her and then staring at her instead of the tv. When I heard that, I was like, "Oh my god"


• For some reason or another, he wasn't very comfortable around our uncle as well as ginger, the dog and kept muttering, "I am scared" (This I heard from grandma). Her explanation to me was that uncle was born with the (ying yang eye) and that dogs can see these 'things'. Now I really dunno...


• He always seem like wanting to vomit, especially in the day. Scientifically, we say that's because he's eaten too little and his stomach's protesting. Whenever he does that, we have to pat him on the back to make him spit out that 'thing'.

Okok... I spilled too much. So, can't blame me for being too ignorant. My parents took the worst toll and I really dunno how to help them at all. I feel so helpless because I can't help my brother scientifically nor spiritually and I only seem to be adding on to their problems when I vent my frustrations using harsh tones.

Moving along, my mum's desperate last attempt was to take him to visit a 师父. And well, he only adds to my confusion about my brother being sick or being possessed.

I only want to believe that he can be cured and no matter what, I must try to find out more.