Unique=Beauty?

When I mean 'V' shaped...                                                                                  

Cannot understand why people still admire a twisted version of beauty. It sickens me very much to see people gesturing at this little fish while laughing or showing it off to kids...

It's not animal abuse or anything. (Ok, Maybe I dunno) But I can't see any visible injuries on this fish.

Would you link this to suffering or art?

This is why I think I could never ever keep fishes as pets. When I was young, I used to be so carefree and killed so many of them as though I am 'passing judgement' like 'god'. Reason being unlike our canines or feline companions, fishes cannot make any sound and I think we take it for granted that 'silence is golden' or in this case, 'silence is crimson'.

But now that I have grown up and became more aware of things, I realised that it's just 'innocent murder' that I have been doing to fishes and insects all who deem it fit to survive at the expense of their lives just because I was bored or that the annoying insects bothered my territory.

Perhaps I am getting too carried away but surely 99% of all who call themselves 'homo sapiens' did commit 'murder' to another living thing of another species before. It's just that we shrug off the matter just because the 'victims' are not of the same species.

Anyway, moving on from this grim thinking of mine, went over to the fish farm with my maternal cousins and grandmother yesterday on the 7th March.

What is the definition of beauty?

All the fishes I chanced upon were considered unique and disregarded by my own parents who brush it off as being 'unrealistic' and 'weird'.

事到如今，我到底在寻找什么？

又寂寞又满足的我似乎在等什么。。。

原来我需要。。。

Hmph. Time really is short, I have so much to learn and yet my own future seems so uncertain. Haaa...

I can so imagine myself striding down another path sometimes, and then stopping to admire the flora of that path, touching the vision that appears like fairy dust on the several 'What if' for that path I took. Because I want to walk down a path with no regrets, That's so strange isn't it?

How am I on another channel with my parents? Communication- I speak Singlish while they all crack nonsense. I am so...

Brother: 关工！（。。。不是收工吗？）

Mother: 拜小人（老妈，你是在说‘打小人’吧。）

Dad: 吹牛 （饶了我吧！！不吹笛子却是吹牛。。。）

Me: I am the sanest one here.

Haha... Cute huh?