Whatever I have done...

Such a long time that I have not updated this space on the vast space of the World Wide Web. Lols. And as I am updating this space, thunder rumbles quite near as lightning flashes just seconds ago. And no, I am at the 18th story at my grandparent's place listening to Celine Dion's "A mother's prayer" and not the sappy song from Titanic.

As to why I am here... Well, my house is undergoing renovation for 2 weeks or so so I am currently camping here while gearing up for war (exams la). So damn hectic and all so I guess communcication with most people ceases here. 老狗 really grew fat sia. GINGER!!

 

 See? He's an aged one!! Old dog

A passing incident made me remember something again. Thanks to Somebody, I just reminded myself that I should always rein in my emotion perhaps more then ever just to avoid misunderstandings. And for the record, I always get misunderstood so I gave up explaining a long time ago.

It's like I always wonder why I can never resolve the problem about my fear in relationships, and I guess simply is because no matter what anyone does or say about it, the fact of the matter is that I cannot 100% trust anyone I am close to.

I know that sounds really queer considering I trust friends so easily. It's just that I do not find it easy to trust someone I am close to. Also, once the already shaky trust is placed, and I get stung, I guess it takes a long time for me to just trust anybody again.

Sure I look nonchalant but that does not mean I am an emotionless statue. It's just that these issues I do not voice does not mean I have no voice. Evey time, I repress negative things and look forward to the positive. But when I get mad and upset, I guess the drama genes can kick in.

No, I am not getting emotional just because I remembered that an issue pricked me, I just unsuccessfully voice out my own thoughts every time. Finally, I don't ask for much, just don't misunderstand me just because I flare up over slight issues. Sometimes, consider that I may be ignorant and nonchalant and even dense but I am not emotionless.

What's past is past and I always relate to the saying that it is the now and the future that matters more then anything. If you want to reminisce the old days then fine. But if you expect any opinions on that... what so you think I would say?

I am not pissed nor angry that it happened. Now that I think about it, I guess, it was predictable in the long run. I accept things as they come as life. After all, we are a species that has evolved over time to handle issues that differ from animals.

Look, It's the man-made Mount Olympus of Singapore. Lollilol

Moving pass this issue, yes I have placed a random picture post. The Genting feeling I get when it gets to the monsoon season...

I feel so damn slack.Why is it that all or most exam papers have to fall on the monsoon season resulting in perfect slacking moments ruined by exams?? This sucks.

PS: Ah, since my house is undergoing renovation, it simply means that all things clash in one. God...