What's...up!?

And I love procrastinating at my grandmother's place sia. No seriously is more like I feeling myself getting stressed. In fact, I also damned stress that my hair is dropping at a faster rate (OMG I am going to be bald!!!). I know that being underweight was already a problem to my body but hair loss is the icing to the cake sia.

Hmm... the point is that... I have no other photos this time plus the fact that the stupid spam virus on hotmail got my account temporarily suspended until I logged in again. What the hell is with that postmaster shit?

Nothing much happening save for heading to class and then resuming studying all day long... more like slack studying but what the heck.

Ahh... will update whenever there's time here and again.

It's just that one becomes nonchalant all because of another existence that screws one otherwise peaceful life.  

No seriously, I often wonder what it would have been like if I never had a brother or even if I had any siblings, get them normal as they come. LOLS.. I rather them be normal crazy teenagers and all... 

I probably would not be so 'fail' in respect to my life. Also considering everything, I am lucky to have my character moulded from 'solitude' so much so that I hardly miss anyone that I become indifferent to so many people and situation.

I dunno. I contradict myself too much. Often, I wondered why for a 'neglected' child in the family I never became rebellious and everything. It's like I reason everything as 'predestined' rather then 'change'.

In time, I guess, I grew more optimistic despite everything... and this just sounds so damn negative now la. I am NOT depressed. I just start to remember my pathetic life but as always, I feel like, I am lucky. Wait, I AM lucky as things get.

Even though I get rebuked and even punished for getting nonchalant and distant when things get rough, I just bo chup again lol.... Not a thing to be proud about though.