Losing my cool for trival reasons
I have been such a grouch lately... Gahh!! Hope it does not mean I am sick or anything though.
Haiz... it keeps raining lately too. Don't get me wrong, I don't dislike it neither do I really welcome the relief of it. I have to admit the weather is just getting more and more humid as of late.
Thought I will just crap as of late since well, it's boredom relief.
I want to SLEEP!! I just want to since I am having intermittent sleeping pattern again. Not good for my body. Damn it.
15th May 2010
Which makes me realise something more about me. That I am a 'complacent lucky' person that is considered quite fulfilled in a materialistic world.
The things I wanted, or rather, several subconscious desires that I seem to not be able to express out, always seem to fade into the back of my mind as days turned to months and then years.
So how am I 'complacent lucky' then? Well, I tend to be nonchalant and go with the flow of events and not really voicing out what NORMAL youths my age would want. This is where the 'luck' part is factored in. Among the various things I wanted/somehow got acquainted with:
As long as ever, I am still waiting for the day I can actually get a dog or two for my own though.
I have always (or lately) have considered myself as 'lucky' even if things don't always happen to be positive. Maybe others may not get it but really, the 'luck' is namely because I have 'no desire' for certain things that are in hand with vices.
I may sound contradicting here. I said that I am lucky to get things because I desired them and then I get things also because I don't desire them.
Hmm, to be honest, I am not that sure myself namely because the things I desired are mainly superficial and I am being materialistic maybe. So they come my way. Vice versa for the things I never truly desire to use- cash/profits won from gambling sessions.
And as usual, namely complacent because well, I heck care it la. Just blame/acknowledge it to be natural inate luck.
Haiz... it keeps raining lately too. Don't get me wrong, I don't dislike it neither do I really welcome the relief of it. I have to admit the weather is just getting more and more humid as of late.
Thought I will just crap as of late since well, it's boredom relief.
I want to SLEEP!! I just want to since I am having intermittent sleeping pattern again. Not good for my body. Damn it.
15th May 2010
Which makes me realise something more about me. That I am a 'complacent lucky' person that is considered quite fulfilled in a materialistic world.
The things I wanted, or rather, several subconscious desires that I seem to not be able to express out, always seem to fade into the back of my mind as days turned to months and then years.
So how am I 'complacent lucky' then? Well, I tend to be nonchalant and go with the flow of events and not really voicing out what NORMAL youths my age would want. This is where the 'luck' part is factored in. Among the various things I wanted/somehow got acquainted with:
- Laptop (Baby)- It happened to be a requirement for the next level in education and I got one after factoring in the weight.
- GameBoy, DS, PSP- Mostly requested as teenagers (Bro and I) somehow, always got them and neglected them until months later.
- Accessories- Parents bought them mainly as gifts of LOVE and rewards academic wise.
I have always (or lately) have considered myself as 'lucky' even if things don't always happen to be positive. Maybe others may not get it but really, the 'luck' is namely because I have 'no desire' for certain things that are in hand with vices.
I may sound contradicting here. I said that I am lucky to get things because I desired them and then I get things also because I don't desire them.
Hmm, to be honest, I am not that sure myself namely because the things I desired are mainly superficial and I am being materialistic maybe. So they come my way. Vice versa for the things I never truly desire to use- cash/profits won from gambling sessions.
And as usual, namely complacent because well, I heck care it la. Just blame/acknowledge it to be natural inate luck.
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