Life goes on though

So many things have been happening in my life and so... yea, kinda lazy to update this space, making it seem like I am a huge 懒惰虫... Lmaos. The most recent happenings includes me getting the unsatisfactory results back (which, in my word, is a huge pain in the a**), getting a new laptop (bye baby...) and oh, learning something new as well.

 

First things, first, getting my results back. To be honest, I kinda expected that kind of results because... well, it's me and I usually get lousy results in major examinations as compared to class tests. It happens all the time...

 

As to how bad it was, I passed 1 out of 4 subjects and right away, I decided there wasn't any point in continuing the course because Interest minus Intelligence equals to a waste of TIME and MONEY which, would have been better invested in other things.

 

I was honestly actually surprised at the one subject that I passed. I proceeded through the exams without much confidence on that particular subject because it was really more or less basing off on logic being more of the 'problem sum' type.

And in the end... that was the only one I passes... Seriously, don't belittle fate.

 

Anyhow, the passing mark is actually 40 and well, I scored 30 plus for all 3 of the subjects. So, yea, (throws hands up in the air) I kinda failed... and I deserve a kick in my back because it's all the struggling type. Hiazz... I guess, I am not intelligent enough?

 

Well, 打回原形... so in the end, I decided to just study Logistics (what I have been studying in polytechnic lols). I figured that because I never really hated Logistics, why not continue?

 

And so, here comes the headache... I hate the research part on schools locally that has affiliations with the overseas institutes. No offense but it gets on my nerves that it's so hard to find a 'decent' course like Logistics in overseas schools while weird courses regarding history and languages keep popping up in all the 'nation's top school'.

 

I am so not against this notion. Heck, if I had my way, I would have jetted off to study language and literature or theatrical arts already. Come on, all along, I have always been more inclined towards the arts side. However, let's be practical as all Asians have to be. What can you be with a degree in Linguistics or Ancient History in god-knows-what country? In Singapore, it would be at most, a teacher in that relevant field?

 

PS: There's no way in hell I can ever be a teacher. Mentor? Yes. Peer? Yes. Teacher... Please Kill me.

Yes, I did seriously consider studying linguistics or the theatre arts even until now... but let's face it, Singapore can never have the 'American Dream'...

 

Anyway, the second point to note is that I have a new laptop from Sony VAIO S series. It was purchased by my dad and brother after they told me that they had to walk the whole day to just scout out a laptop.

 

Dad had it better. He sent me pictures of the potential laptops but I was not taken with the design or the keyboard. Hell, 本小姐 just hard to please when it comes to personalisation lols. Just kidding la.

 

The only flaw thus far that I have with this laptop is that I am so not used to the keyboard as it is more spaced out then my previous laptop and that the touch pad... irritates me because I always place my finger on the sensor rather then the button itself. I am such an Epic fail every single time sia...

 

I like this laptop because... dad got me the CHOCOLATE coloured one. OMG. It's my first brown coloured laptop. Well, at least it's not pink and there are only like.. brown and black to choose from?! Dots...

PS: Blog is being done on the stylish new laptop which already contains hand prints.. lols. It's also so much more complicated... Gahh...

 

Finally, I have realised that I may have a mild case of dyscalculia (dis-kal-kyoo-lee-uh). God. It took me ages to figure this one out, the term mentioned is a learning disability with regards to Maths.

All the time, I was always wondering why I just 'cannot get' maths. I mean, even people from my 'remedial' classes could graduate and yet, here I am, after the entire remedial classes have ended, be unable to even secure a pass in Maths.

So I can confirm that I am afflicted mildly but the impact on my studies... I really hate my life... I guess, my parents will find it hard to believe that I have Math Dyslexia. They are probably going to say, "Where got such thing one? You fail maths because you hate it only what." At least, that is what everybody will be telling me.

And the worst part, I BELIEVED in that reasoning.

 

Now however, I guess I came to terms with that already. Yes, it is my fear and hatred of maths that may have lead to my failures in that area. But now, looking back at my own results, it was clear that my basics were ok (seeing as primary school was the basic), and that things went bad from primary 4 onwards.

 

I don't blame my poor results in maths because of the 'illness', it was more or less my interest in that subject weaned after the dismal results and in Secondary school, I accepted that I was 'inferior' to my peers in maths no matter how hard I tried because while they could understand excel in it, I was stuck trying my best and falling flat on reality.

 

It's a nightmare back in those days. But now, I don't want to see maths but I will have to keep trying when I come face to face with it. I really hoped that I had discovered this sooner so that I would not have been that disheartened whenever I flunked maths.

 

Ah well, better late then never. It seems like it's not so common in Singapore when the emphasis has always been on Mathematics and Science. Yea.. not much of a correlation here.